Co is getting more exciting. Friday was my first time joining in a combined practice and to add on to my nervousness, i'm soloing for my instrument-zys because huixin had tuition. I was contemplating to turn up because i was too nervous to be alone on my first time. I wldnt know how to count the beats or when to start blowing. But then again, i realise that i shldnt run away from obstacles, which is agreed by wenhong. So there i was at combined prac, controlling my fear! And after friday i wld say : i survived my first co combined prac! Though i was shivering throughout the prac cos it was too cold(maybe more of from tension), and i got stares from the conductor for blowing wrongly, that day past and i admire my courage. LOL.

I like our sectionals teacher in charge. His sense of humor got me laughing a lot. And the thing is, he doesn't laugh at his own joke, which makes it funnier. He told gys one day not to be too serious blowing, and told zys to be more serious abit! hahaha. I prefer co now cos i have an instrument of my own alr then not so frustrating. But i really miss gys! The sound is sharper, it's lighter and looks more professional! oh well....

I had lunch at pizzahut with xy and carmen on tues. Me and xy talked very loudly then carmen keep shhing us. hahaha! We had chocolate cake dessert! I'm always so embarrassed by xy. I accidentally kicked a pair of shoes on sale. I said sorry because i thought it was xy's feet. Then xy kept laughing at me, asking why i said sorry to a pair of shoes. LOLOLOLOL.

I went to nadhilla's hse on wed! They were actually there to do their pw project. And we tag along to play wii! Omg! i think wii is very cool (velly koooll-nad's way). Played wii sports and it somehow makes you look retarded . Like hitting imaginary things. ahaha. And her mum cooked french fries and crab stick for us ;DD DAMNNN nice. Yeah after eating ... i weighed myself. Totally shocked cos i add 4 kg!! Have been eating too much. Even my weight doesnt tell lies. Now my weight begins with a 5! Told my mum my weight and she said, "that's my weight when i got married. " -.-

I decided that i like my class 19/10 afterall! I used to envy my friends from other classes about how good their class is and how much fun they are having. It's just the mindset of me that the patches is always greener at the other side and always feeling that others are better than mine. I dont feel that way anymore! I have funny friends like nadhilla, loud friends like priscilla, crazy friends like sokhui and claudia and many many more in 19/10! ;DD We have distinct ways of laughing. XD



I dont know why there's so many ads on my tagboard. My blog is not a blogshop!! I think i'll make my blog private for awhile. My internet connection is not going well. My dad has just subscribed the miotv for those sports channel and the lines are in a mess now. Very lag.

'School holiday' has started! ;D Dont have to wake up early every morning and have half open eyes alr! Sometime last week there's a combo of 7 person asking me what happened to my eyes! Cos it's half-opened like zombie. lol. SO i walked around telling ppl i didnt have enough sleep.. Was really very weary for the entire past 2 weeks with the cip and gpp going on. Hope the hols give me sufficient break before the sch term begins .

I was involved in kids run cip. It's quite fun. Collection counter crew for the first event and carnival crew for the second event. Had to pass the people their bib numbers+tshirts+goodie bag and key into the system all in 1 min. I like tt callenging feeling. ;D I only dont like it when the kids' parents enquire so much about the event. 1 standard qn was " can i change the tshirt size?" Then have to constantly repeat "yes u can change it at the help deck behind" Feel like recording down and press play when they ask! Imagine 1000 parents asking u the same qn. Got scolded by some parents for technical errors because the system stated that they had already collected their race packs when they havent. So i refuse to give them their stuff and they scolded me! It's also not my fault. =( oh welll. Carnival crew for the second event left me sun burnt! Under the sun for the whole morning to noon, picking up balls that the kids throw. For the entire morning, i have been picking up balls. I love some of kids there. They are so cute. ;DDDD

There was a college event yesterday at pasir ris park. 3.2km X-country. Took the mrt circle line! LOL. And i went over-high. Laughing at mad but nobody seems to find the thing i laugh at funny, as usual. Then sokhui and claudia very funny. Sing to me a song. " dui mian then nu hai kan guo lai, kan guo lai, kan guo lai" hahahahah! They very cute! 3.2 km doesnt feels like one at all. It feels kinda short. Ran with claudia and our timing.. tsk tsk. We dont have the mood to run! why like tt? Really puzzled at how i ran for 2.4. Ran past the water point and i gulped 3 cups of water. Wrong choice. Felt super bloated. Then at the ending point felt very weird! So many people were like standing by the side watching the runners run past! Like we were the last few like tt. ahaha.

Hais, but when we were dismissed, i did smth very bad to huixin. Felt very very bad. Me and my big mouth. Maybe it's better off if i keep my mouth shut. Have been saying many wrong things recently. And my volume.. i seriously need to control. I wldnt talk so much from now on, or i'll end up saying more wrong things.



Decided that i shldnt totally ignore my blog.. So many things happen in just a short span of 2 months. I finally get to understand and experience the meaning of "HECTIC", the word being used by many past jc students to describe their jc lives. All i can say is it's super stressful. There are so many things at the back of my mind that has to be done and it's still piling. i am so overwhelmed by everything that is happening around me recently... Every time i think about my academic results i feel so stupid. The contents and self work are overloading.... RAHHH. And now i also understand the huge gap between o and a levels.

CO concert was awesome. An amazing performance put up by ajco. I really recognize their efforts in staging up this performance. The crowd shouted for encore 3 times! Then the conductor was like walking in and out of the backstage and the stage many many times. ;D haha. I was the usher and had to wear a blazer and court shoes.. My feet suffered very badly until i decided to walk without any shoes on for quite some time. I've never been to a concert like tt and i just understood the procedure of a concert-no entering or exiting freely.

Band concert was at esplanade. Their concert is also very well done and it gets very exciting towards the end. Went with my og to support ian and also because we need to catch up on our gossips. ;D I was late that day and i cldnt find my tickets at the counter! wasted the first half hr of the concert. And after the concert i saw wy. Hugged her! I miss her too.

I saw carmen on sat to do cip. Thanks carmen for ur company;D I decided to let her know what i've been feeling for so long. Glad that she understands how i feel. I miss a left-hander girlfriend... And congrats to you for finding kk. LOL. I thought is AHMAD. hahaha. Last long long long long yeah! Saw yw and jq as well the night before. We were chatting together and i feel so happy with them around talking about their lives. hahah. Quite fun except that someone is so daoooooo.

Today we received out house t! PANTHER!! I love our yellow house panther. ;DDDD We had some AMK trail trip. They bring us around AMK to understand the estate around us.. I dont know what to say. But luckily there were sweets, and i had the best of both worlds. ;D

Everyday there's smth for me to anticipate, to spot.



And i shant think about them. Just dont think about them. ^^



HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CARMEN AND WENHONG! ;DD
ALL THE BEST AND I LOVE YOU ALL!
Yay, join me being old 17! haha. They look alike probably because their birthday are so close??

There is smth wrong with me. When i'm not at using the computer i have so many things on my mind that i want to blog about. I tell myself that i will blog once i get online. And now at this" new post page" , i cant think of much to blog about. I bet after posting this all my blogging feel will come back again, which is always the case. Tsk!

Pw is amalgamation and alternatives. What now?

Went for funorama at acjc! Enjoyed myself with carmen, xy, yt and herman. Walked round and round many times and i feel that i know the place already. And their hall is so nice! The swimming pool! omg. Went to the toilet there. Carmen was faster than me doing her business. I heard the toilet flush and carmen said " omg? it's auto." hahahah! I think is super funny la, the way she says it. and another funny thing. Carmen bought a $7 nasi berani from isabel's store. When isabel brougth the rice to her, and after she opens it, "ISABEL!" Cos isabel say have alot bu end up the rice very little with a pathetic piece of chicken Cant stop myself laughing at carmen. And the ice-cream float from xy's store... If someone else passes that cup to me, i wldnt have taken them. COs is from xy, i trust that it's drinkable. haha.

Monday i have festivaloflife! Signed up for graffiti mural painting and i didnt regret a single bit. 25 of us get to spray 2 stretches of walls outside the multi-purpose hall. And 5 of us in my class are supposedly to take up 1/5 of the walls. End up we sprayed almost 1/2 the walls. Felt really bad la. But glad that out proud work by 19/10 will be up on the wall for as long as it can be, i hope? I like my bowling pins and bowling ball. ;D I never knew spray painting can be so much fun. DIdnt have much confidence in spraying cos it will be permanent unless someone paints over it. So i took my time to spray and my right arm is pain from the position my hand has to remain for so long while i spray. It's worth it , shld i say.

Tuesday resilience workshop at labrador. It's quite fun other than the fuss i had about my track pants. Bad designed track pants! I dont care about the ventilation it gives. The stitches along the side of my track pants is not full, so when i bend my legs, there'll be openings. Quite irritating. I volunteered to be a belayer! My first time. I think it's quite meaningful, giving the climber a sense of security. Being the first belayer is the most tough. Have to follow 4 steps to the tightening of the rope.

I tried being the first belayer once. I had an exciting experience! First nadhilla climbs so fast and i had to keep tightening the rope with all my strength as quickly as she climbs. Then i have to follow nadhilla as she walks on the high element. And suddenly she lost her balance and i felt myself lifting off the ground. Thankfully priscilla immediately held me down. If not i'll be flying up. I kept pulling the rope to help nadhilla up and she looked like she's swimming in the air! Damn funny! Very nice experience aiding my friend when she's so high up.

I myself also climbed the high element, some criss-cross rope thingy. Lost my balance many times. Fell backwards, stood up straight, then fell forward, then fell backwards again. hhaah. Dont know what i'm doing. But i completed! yay:D "How do you feel??" , "shutup"(silently).



OMG i'm really 17! No more sweet 16!

I WANT TO THANK EVERYBODY FOR THE SURPRISES, WISHES AND PRESENTS! Thanks to so many of you who wished me at 12 am sharp and afew mins later. ;D

And ESPECIALLY THE OUTING WITH Wenhong, wanqian, yunyi, shiying, candy, fengkai, joel and sokhui! Wenhong very real! She used her ipod and say want to play truth or dare, then suddenly change to the lie detector thing. SHe said 1...2.....3..... then i was like expecting the ipod to have smth. Then so scary! Wanqian and shiying suddenly behind me. And they sang bday song for me! SO sweet of them ;DD A very plesant surprise. ;D

Then today 19/10! They make me see them in a totally different light! Today whole day in school i didnt really expect anything from my class. I thought no one knows it's my bday other than nadhilla who kept wishing me every hr. They sang a mini bday song at the stairs while we were walking and i thought that's all about it.

Then whole day just went on like any ordinary day. Mundane, boring. And i still msg xinying tt i miss having bday in ws cos teacher wld show those slides and all. Little did i know so many of my friends were planning my birthday, like how are they gonna surprise me. I SERIOUSLY DIDNT EXPECT ANYTHING. That's what makes it so surprising!

I went to search for straws and when i went back to our table at the canteen, my class were singing my birthday song very loudly and desmond was carrying a cake to me. Really dont know how to react! SURPRISED! The happy thing is that my whole class was there! Felt really touched! They immediately make me change my impression of them and aj. I'm very happy and paiseh at the same time. All i can say is "thanks, really thanks alot". Sokhui said they were planning that the whole day. ANd to think i'm clueless about everything.

THANKS!!!!! ;DD



Life isnt all too well for me now. Adaptation period is not easy after all. The jump is big. Yes. Everything is so screwed up now.... Crappppp. I lack the motivation in life. I feel like ignoring everything. And yes aj. You really think i want to be in aj for goodness sake? I dont need those comments of urs. What so big deal about doing so well? Do well also dont have to look down on others right? Come on la. Sometimes ppl are just so eeefffed up.

I've been eating so much lately. Even i didnt notice tt until sokhui and wenhong point out to me. Signs of stress maybe? Eating somehow calms me down. It really do. Life is such that we have to keep moving on, whether favourable or not. Kinda sad to know tt it has to be this way. But i believe things will turn out fine for me, in time to come. I always feel encouraged by his words. It's all too comforting to hear that i'm not alone, that i'll make it.

And so many tests recently. Badly done. And i've already failed physics, if u call that 15 mins paper a test. Chiong until dont know what i'm writing. Maths another one. No time to complete or even read the questions properly. My chinese teacher shared with us that a research has been done tt a person leading a totally stress-free ,fulfilling and peaceful and healthy life can live till 200 yrs old. By stressing ourselves in sch and sating up late to study or use com are reducing our days by half. hmmm..?? So i wonder, is it worth it?

Oh ya. There's this girl in my college who is carrying the same bag as me!! The so called conspicuous bag. And cos of that, i realise my peers identify me through my bag. First, elaine and pamela told me they were like following this girl with similar bag as me because they wanted to call me. They followed until halfway and realised it's someone else. Then xinying told me she actually ran after the girl with the same bag as me at cck stn just so she can call me. And she realised it's not me. And finally in the canteen one day, with the bags all on the benches and no one there, xiaocong saw the purple bag and thought is mine. So he put his bag there, thinking it's our pdg's table. When he brought his food to the table, he realised tt table is not our pdg's, is some unknown ppl. He felt so paiseh and quickly take his bag. Damn funny la. So sorry my friends. COnfusionsss.. But it's not started by me. I carried the bag first. haha. I think it's kinda funny in a way. ;D

Today i heard that junchin and jialian are going overseas! Bon voyage! Really do hope they will enjoy their last few days of holidays! Miss them alot! I was talking to jialian just now. And i realised how much i missed her. She destress me all the time. She's my stress-reliever. I felt so happy talking to her. I kept laughing with her conversations. She's still as funny as ever. She turned on her webcam and so so many weird actions. Seriously man! hahah! My most random and cutest friend. ;DD Planning to meet up soon! yay. ;DD



It's pdg now, all the way until end of next year. I really still prefer my og! Though we promised to not let OG3 die, i feel it's sort of struggling to stay alive. And very soon.. I HOPE NOT. It's really difficult to all meet up together because all of us no longer have common breaks once the actual time-table kicks in. NO more og break, lunch and movie after school. =( I miss their jokes. With them can laugh whole day one. Sokhui say every time i see elaine will go crazy. I don't notice myself going crazy though. If my class is og jiu hao!

I feel that our class are not really bonded yet. Other than having lessons together, we wld be separated. Everybody wld go look for their own friends and some of the girls are not very friendly either. Oh well... Canteen food is quite good cos it tastes like outside food.

Lectures. yayyyyy! Tutorials. siannnn.... Lectures can sleep or not pay attention and plus there's always aircon! Tutorials on the other hand need to pay attention cos everyone has to participate. Almost every subjects need to go in front of the class to present answers. Really not used to it. I dont like!!

It'll be better if there's no such thing as lectures and tutorials and just stick to the secondary school way of conducting lessons - Sit in class the entire day while our teachers rotate to teach us. With the current way jcs are conducting their lessons, we do not have a fixed classroom to go to. Half the time we are roaming around the schools to look for the right classrooms to have our tutorials. We'ld be carrying our bags with us the entire day..

I hope alot, i expect alot, i want alot. But what i usually get in return is merely truth that i dislike. I've never really gotten what i wanted. They are just my wishful thinkings. It can be very frustrating at times.
People say work for what you want and desire. But really, those things i want cant be worked for. They are beyond anyone's control. Sometimes it's good to not hope for so many things. Let nature takes its course. And i shall see it through..



Tuesday.
Celebrated elaine's bday and at the same time treating it as og outing! Extremely fun day out with og. Few of us met up at bugis before elaine came, to buy her bday present. Had problems finding her a presnt cos still don't really know what she likes. End up settled on a very cute smiling table lamp. ;D

Proceeded to play pool. They very funny lor, guy and girl paired up to play. Felt very lucky that day cos all my unintentional balls went in! They said that was my hidden talent. LOL. They shld have seen my real lousy self, by miscuing so many times.. That day was just being lucky! Took lots of pictures at the pool place. Super funny ones. Then i had arsal to record his beat boxing in my phone. hahahahahah! I hear and i want to laugh. It's very good though. No saliva one. Some ppl beat box until full of saliva de. LOL! Later on had fish and co. Very very funny. I think i'm enjoying and slacking too much! Time to get serious!

Friday.
Finally get to see my pdg friends alr. SO far still not so close yet. Introduced ourselves and there's this guy who said he likes transformer, tt's why he's wearing a transformer's belt( tug at shirt to show us his belt). LOL!! That's entertaining.. Then someone very enthu volunteered to buy all the lecture notes and tutorials. hehehe. Good to have this type of friends as classmates.

Monday.
Today had pdg lunch. First time. I got to learn all their names alr! woohoo. They are quite friendly. So i tried my best to be sociable with them. Hopefully we'll bond better as a class for the next 2 years! ;DD

Kuanieflower is a funny girl! I'm just 2 days younger than her. ;D Found someone close bday to me!



Happy Lunar New Year and Valentine's day!

Friday was the last day of og! Love my og cos they were the ones by my side on my first few "alone" days in aj. Lx told me to remain in aj and that we'll make it through. yes! We've only known each other for 2 weeks but we alr watched 2 movies together. 1 movie per week. O.o

Wonderful friday back to westspring! The familiar and comfortable feeling when i step through the gates of west spring is really undeniable. I havent established that kind of feeling in aj yet. I feel so in place! Long time didnt see mr p and my other teachers alr. Miss them~ Overjoyed to see them! Mr p as usual walks ard with his camera to take pics. Miss having a friendly teacher.

Pj ppl all so high. They kept on cheering and dancing. Then we felt so extra. Lucky they toned down after that and become normal. The teachers actually invite us into the staffroom! 4 yrs in ws i didnt step into the staffroom properly and now they actually invite us in. There's a pool table and massage chair in the pantry! SO fun. Massaged my leg until it became more numb!

Then we went to mac to eat and chat. Felt closer to some of my friends only after we changed school. Why not ealier? hmmm. Ss very funny! He unknowingly sang his school song out loud as yw took video of him! hahahah! Then they post for cock eye. LOL! Laugh alot on friday.

4A'09 will meet up soon! huat ah huat ah.

Hope this new year will bring with it much joy and laughter!